~~Hurting You By Breathing~~

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Emptiness flowing, hardness inside

A vicious victorious grin

I can’t take this right now

Standing so tall—but it’s all fake

Nothing is right—nothing at all

Breathing inside, but drowning without

So much doubt, and confidence

I guess I know the reasons

I guess I know its cause

I guess I know who to blame

I guess I know what to do

But I don’t know why

Why does this have to happen?

Who made this decision?

Who? Why? When? Where? How?

This just isn’t right…..

I love you

But I don’t

I trust you

But I’m afraid

I need you

But I could live without you

I can’t hurt you

But I’m hurting you by breathing!

You’re the last thing that’s good

The last one I really want

The last hurrah of heaven

But you

Are not the one I need

I’m dying here alone

As you’re watching me bleed

I hurt you by being alive

You hurt me by being dead

Won’t you just see?

Won’t you just turn around and look

Right back at me?

But if you looked

Would it change anything?

Or would I still be here

Hurting you?

Hurting me?

Dying inside

And praying for a freedom

That I will never get?

Is it meaningless to apologize?

It is, when you don’t mean it

At all.