Why? Why This?

Amber was

Taken

Away from me

I thought that

I had

Finally

Gotten everything

I could

Ever want

Or need

But I

Found myself

Wanting more

Always

Wanting more

More of you

More of love

More boys

More girls

More drama

More trouble

I couldn't stop

The games I play

I couldn't turn

Back the clock

To the day

That it all

Went

Wrong

But if I could

Oh god

You know I would

Please just

Forgive me

And walk

Away

From me

As long as

You come back

One day

It's all I ask

For goodbye

To never be

Forever

You can do

Whatever you please

As long as you

Remember me

I will do

Whatever it takes

To get you to

Notice me

To get you

To care

But even though

So many many do

They are never

Ever going

To be enough

I don't understand

The temptation

Behind

All this lies

But I just can't end

These games

Until the end

And back again

Forever and ever

World without end.

Potato Chip--EAT

Potato potato potato chip

What the hell rhymes with 'chip'?

So hyper this ain't makin sense

For this there ain't no consequence

He's not after me cuz it's not what I expect

Love from myself, when will I find it?

I guess it don't matter

As long as I'm here forever after

Dancin the dance

And giving life a chance

:D

Dance The Dance

Searching to feel loved, like I'm cared about

But as always I just can't stop the doubt

Do I deserve her?  Everything I could ever want?

But now all these memories are starting to haunt

Me and I just can't slip away

So erase it all take back the day

And end it with a flip of my hair

Was I ever truly there?

With my hyper active dance

Your true love never stood a chance

So now I'm back to being on my own

With all my guys in different time zones

And I wouldn't have it any other way

So screw it and take away the day

Live up the night

Never give up this f**king fight

It is so worth dying for

So never let em get in the door

Fight to the very last man

Cuz the fast-paced end is the whole entire plan

And if you never stood a chance

Then just start to dance the dance

One Long Hard Night And Day......

I lost my own personal Jesus, my very best friend....

Can you believe that on this snowy day we'd end?

I guess it's all my fault, I should take this blame

Should just run away and erase my name

If he hates me, why should I remain?

But no I'll stay....And seek shelter with you from the rain

My only love and light

Will hold me tight tonight........

This Won't Be The Day (First Real Attempt at a Song lol)

So you're gone away from me.......Away........

I won't see you another day

And fuck yes I'm crying

And hell's yeah inside I'm dying

But no this isn't the day

That I snap and throw it all away

I ain't okay I ain't okay

But this ain't the day

You my were everything

I would've given you every song that I would sing

But now you're gone away, gone away, gone away

But this won't be the day

This just ain't the day

So snap me in two hold me down and kill me

You won't cause me any more agony

You've gone away and taken me with you

And yes I'm broken now without you

And fuck yes I miss you

And hell's yeah I need you

But this won't be the day that you snap me in two

This won't this won't this won't be the day

So shut up and get the heck away

Leave me alone without my memories

My memories of us, my memories

Memories.........Memories..........Memories.....

All the little agonies...............

Sins

Pleasures and temptations

Bitter addictions

Love's foundations

What brings down nations

Addicted Wrongfully

The beauty slips

Softly from their lips

My eyes widen in surprise

And my resistance dies

Another addiction

Another temptation

Another lover

But I can't wait for it to be over

Taking me and breaking me

Causing me so much agony

But with every sweet word

You become my world

And I become your slave

Addicted to the sweetness you once gave.

One Brief Poem

Whispers of remembrance haunt my dreams

In this cold world nothing is as it seems

And I stand alone with shadows by my side

On this black night, what's left to hide?

I might as well just fake a smile

And stick around for a while

There's no place else to go

And no one else to know......

Goodbyes--Poem and Life Post

Alexander, Simon and countless others.........Alexander has given his account to another and Simon and I have grown impossibly apart.......So many goodbyes, so many left unsaid......I'm so sorry won't you listen to me? I wish you could've just taken the time to say goodbye....

So many goodbyes I hear

So many left unsaid

In this night there's the whole world to fear

I'd just rather be dead

But I gotta keep fighting

There's no place else to be

I gotta stop these tears I'm crying

And return to being me....

Better To End In Fire Than In Rain

Burn this place

Let the tears fall down your face

And wipe it away with your fist

Blood pours from the slit in your wrist

Burn this place

Now it's their turn to chase

After you, run girl run

This battle is yours to be won

Better to end in fire

I know the situation is dire

But its better to end in fire than in rain

Burn away all the pain

When everything is over

They'd better run for cover

No mercy now and no fears

It's time to burn all the tears

Erase every memory and burn yourself alive

And then end it all with a knife.......

Never Love Another Girl

Giving up on this for a while

I would've traded the world for her smile

Amber you know how much I care

But I can never bring myself to dare

To hold you close, to hold you tight

I can't do this, it isn't right

First Emily and now you

What can I do?

Of course I'm still bi and that won't change

All this heartbreak won't make me rearrange

But I won't love another girl

Oh no, I won't let those wings unfurl

You were mine, you were mine, you were mine

But that's the end of this rhyme.

A Simple Tale, A Million Versions......

Friends, walking hand in hand, never the right time

I guess they understand, but they're two for a dime

He loves her and she loves him, but things never go right

Now the sunlight seems so dim, and there's not a reason to 

fight

So they turn and walk away, with an outer smile

Never to meet another day, wishing they could have stayed 

for a while

But things never work out that way, and the hands let go

But they never let go, do they? They never forget the best 

friend they'll ever know...........

A Few Secrets/Updates--Life Post

1.       I think of myself as single no matter what happens
2.       These days I walk into doors repetitively
3.       I get nervous a lot less easily
4.       I’m still very much in love with Adam…..Even though I’m kinda dating again
5.       Dylan is flirting with me……A lot. Even though he has a girlfriend and a girl who is in love with him.
6.       Most of my friends online are male
7.       Most of my friends in real life are female
8.       Most of the people I talk to online are older than me
9.       I considered suicide again a few nights ago
10.   I have been quite mood-swingy the past few days
11.   Not a day goes by that I don’t think of Emily
12.   I can’t wait to turn fifteen
13.   I like cuddling things when I’m sleepy
14.   I’m doing really well in school
15.   A few days ago I carved  dragon out of fowm
16.   I want chocolate right now
17.   I haven’t worked out in a while
18.   Adam and I got very close to fighting for the first time last night
19.   The only one who called me on Valentine’s Day was him
20.   I have two new psychotically awesome friends
21.   I am very close to fully starting the writing of my novel
22.   I don’t feel like I’m only fourteen years old
23.   “Ignorance is bliss, ‘tis folly to be wise.” I can’t wait to be wiser than I am
24.   I’m starting to feel less and less hollow
25.   I’m starting the writing of my novel tonight. The full on writing. So I’ll post this and then get to work. Love you all!!!

Reminiscing--Life Post

So I've topped 2000 blog views. So I've topped 200 posts. So I've probably spent a long long time sitting posting on this. So I've probably spent a lot of time just talking about this blog. And here I am, fourteen still, only a few months after the first post ever. I've come a long way in many different ways, and I've done a hell of a lot. All the things posted on here are not even half of the amount of things that have gone on! I have never had the time to tell all the stories, to bare every secret, to open up every vein and let the feelings pour onto the page. I've barely had the time and do you know what I realized earlier?

I don't have TIME for a full-scale mental breakdown, I'm in grade nine at ______! With the massively high level of academics at my high school, I don't have the time to lose my mind. And what with all my friends losing it and my writing and this blog and my friends and my reading and my own mind life, I don't have time to go crazy.

Huh, perhaps that's the only reason I'm still somewhat sane.......? Either way it's true. I don't have the time loves. But over the summer I might just collapse inside.....Ah well that's a long way away and I don't have the time to worry.

We've had a pretty epic run, haven't we, my amazing blog readers? Probably quite a few of you have been coming here again and again since the start, and I'm beyond grateful to have so many viewers and even some followers. I love you all and I hope you've enjoyed the ride.......Just remember that there's more to come and I won't stop until I blackout and crash. xD

I love you dudes. Wish me luck and if you're lucky I might just post the first few pages of my novel. ;D

See ya dudes!

13 Reasons To Stay--List Post Version One

1. So I can keep updating this blog. It helps me feel better and like I'm cared about, knowing so many are reading it.
2. I want to be published!!!!
3. Coffee.........That's a really good reason to stay alive
4. Hugging Dylan, my Savior, tight and knowing I'm safe with him
5. All the new friends xD
6. Sun-Jung!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's one of the main reasons I'm still here. I wish........*Grins softly.* I wish she knew that.
7. Amber.......She loves me still, even though she is dating Domenic who I may or may not have a crush on. Yes I still love her but I just wish she knew that.
8. This Moment: Me: *Falls off cliff* Dan: ok
9. Domenic! :D He's mah amazing German bro........What else needs to be said about him?
10. I want to finish the novel I'm working on--I'm planning on it being around 500 pages dudes!
11. I want to stay for all the people who care about me. I do not want to hurt people so I need to stay.
12. Adam. I'll stay for Adam who maybe no longer loves me but still cares about me. If he still needs me I will be there for him every step of the way.
13. I'm amazing.

I Will Survive It Somehow

I can't be broken in two

I'm strong even if I'm doing this without you

I know I've walked through fire

I know that the situation is always dire

I know I've begged to fall

But I haven't given it my all

I can't dwell in the past

Time's flying by so fast

And I won't let life leave me behind

A reason to fight I know I will find

It's inside me, in my own world

My wings have unfurled

And I can fly on my own

I've learned all the things I've been shown

And now it's time to leave this hell behind

I know a heaven I will find

Emily I bid you goodbye

Maybe I'll see you again after I die

Alexander good luck wherever you go

You're the first Wolf I will ever know

Dylan thank you for standing by me

You will forever be a part of me

And to the rest

I wish you the best

It's time for me to fly

So good luck and goodbye..........

Inspiration

Stop This Silence.--Life Post

I need to change. I need to adjust my life and become better, I need to start loving more and stop closing myself. I need to get better. I need to heal. I need to open myself up more and reveal who I am, not who I need to be to get attention. I don't have a choice but to change my life. And I need to.

I'm not doing well guys. I need to stop it with the lies and all the using. I need to stop this! My life is dramatic enough I don't need to make them up. How many times have I lied? How much have I done? I lied several years ago (in grade six I think) about dating a boy named Miguel who had AIDS and then left me. I lied most recently about a girl named Anna Shadowlight who had been staying with me because she was running away from home. My friend Domenic fell for her, and then I had her break his heart.....And then I lied and said that Emily was dying and no she isn't she's doing better than ever before. What am I doing? What's wrong with me?

WHAT AM I?!

Thoughts On The Wrong Bus--Life Post

I think that this mistake was quite intentional, to be honest. I wasn’t thinking very clearly this morning because of lack of sleep (I’d stayed up late to work on a project) and I paid for it with one of the most entertaining mornings in a while….

          The title pretty much gives it away though. Yup, you guessed it, I got on the wrong bus.

          In my defence, the driver of the bus I accidentally got on is my afternoon one, so when I recognized her my head went “She has something to do with Lo-Ellen, therefore she will take me to my school.” I got on the bus, she smiled at me, and I went to a seat at the back.

          Things started clicking in my head when we started driving automatically after I sat down—on my usual bus, we usually sit there for a few minutes before the kids from another school get off and transfer someplace else. So I sat there wondering what the heck was going on before the calm cool part of my head said: “Hey, everything’ll work out just fine, let’s see where this little misadventure takes us.”

          So I sat there calmly, listening to my music, and daydreaming. I thought about my life and wondered—was there any meaning behind it all? My entire life had been a’wandering, always making mistakes, correcting them when I felt like it, just living my life. I wasn’t alone but I wasn’t with anyone. I had been a loner for most of my life and I was used to being alone, so when my mind awoke and everything I was started coming to the surface I was too used to being alone to come so quickly out of my shell. Was it worthwhile, the simple and unburdened life I had led before? Or should I had taken more risks as a child, been less sheltered? Until around grade seven I had scarcely cared about my outside life—the world within my mind had always been enough for me. In grade seven, I had gotten rudely snapped out of my shell by a bully named Tyler Gardiner who had beaten me with a stick and insulted me daily for six months of my life. I had been bullied as a child but a stick?! That had been quite new to me. As a child, I had been laughed at somewhat and shoved and pushed and gotten face washes—ah winters had been fun! But now the ones who had bullied me when I was little were now some pretty good friends, and right now I don’t regret a single bit of my life.

          I’m just wondering how different things would have been if I had been more of an extrovert when I had been a kid—my social skills would have greatly improved, along with my life. Well these days I have quite a good amount of friends, both online and in real life, and I guess I’m happy enough. I just wish that things were different sometimes….

          I love my life. I haven’t lived yet despite all the things I’ve done—I found out recently that the amount of things you do doesn’t matter, what matters is the amount of years you do them in. Wisdom doesn’t come from experiences it comes from time being on this planet. I have not lived yet despite it all, and I cannot wait for the years to come.

          To finish off, I eventually got to my school, smiling all the way. I should get on the wrong bus more often. xD Definitely a good diversion from the regular monotonous routine of a high school life. 

Creativity Flowing

Creativity flowing like blood

Painting pictures, carving creatures

Writing poems, telling tales

Making maps of my own world

What's going on with me?

My beautiful words

My beautiful thoughts

Reflected poetry

Brilliant words

Brilliant minds

Brilliant souls

Overflowing from my heart

Onto the page or through the knife

Painting black words

Tearing off old scabs

Reliving old agonies

And seeing them all bared

Naked

On the page.

You're My Chemical

Addiction, temptation, bitter sweet

Can't let you go can't turn away

Run and hide and fuel it up

Burn me down and set me on fire

Don't stop don't stop

Keep right on going

Ignore my screams

Just burn me down, burn me up

Burn away the love, turn the hate to ash

Don't turn away from me

Don't leave me alone

All this cold, freezing my bones

Blasting me, freezing me

I can't let you go

But I need to go

I need to let you go.........

Inspiration For This Poem

Innards

What's in me?

What's inside?

Is it black?

Is it white?

Who am I?

I'm no one

I'm not an angel

Nor am I a devil

Just a human girl

One who has scarcely lived

Nothing remarkable

My inner self

My inner soul

My body and my mind

None are special

I'm just me

So why do so many care?

I'm not worth

All the trouble

I'm not worth

All the love

What's in me

Is black and dark

Unworthy of their love

I used to be so good

But now what's in me

Has rotted

Turned black

Black and hollow

So if you love me

Please realize

What I am

And just leave me alone

Until I can find

My soul again.

No More

No more regrets, no more second thoughts

No more options or decisions

No more doubts in my mind

No more goodbyes left to say

No more tears left to cry

No more dawns left to watch before I sleep

No more moons left to love

No more stars left to fall

No more hearts left to break

No more games left to play

No more fights left to win

No more oceans left to swim

No more mountains left to climb

No more clouds left to watch

no more dreams left to chase

No more truths left to confess

No more pictures left to draw

No more fears left to face

No more hellos left to speak

No more tests left to pass

No more friends left to see

No words left to write

No more

I can take

No more.

Poetry Assortment V. 1

My Beautiful Black Rose

How do I still care?

You hate me now.

Why can't I get you

Out of my mind?

Emily, sweetheart

Do you still remember

Me, your red-winged angel

Who tried and failed to save you?

Or have I slipped your mind

Like you should have slipped mine?

It's been months since

We said our goodbyes

It's been a long time since

Either of us were happy

I regret so much

But most of all

I regret

Leaving you

My beautiful

Black Rose

False Lover

Can't you see my lies? 

Don't you know what I am?

Don't you see every scar

Upon my smooth soft skin?

But yet you're still

Addicted to me

You fool, bloody fool

This isn't right

This isn't smart

Ah love, I'm only using you

Addictive

Tempestuous

Cruel

Cold

Empty

Harsh

Nothing

And everything

But hey if you wanna play

I'll definitely let you in

I'll just sit here waiting

Until the day

That I

Break

Your

Heart

What Am I?

I used to be so good

Loved so much it hurt

Never turned away

But now I'm so cold

So empty inside

Using everyone I can

Using everyone who loves me

Breaking every heart

That I should keep safe and treasure

Never trusting anyone

Never letting anyone in

Always pretending

No regrets and no doubts

What's wrong is right

What's right is wrong

My twisted logic justifies

All the games I play

What have I become?

The Mistress of this Game

He owned her

And she owned him

But she owned another

And was owned by the other as well

And yet another laid claim to her

And another, and another

She owned them all

And claimed to love them back

But oh if they only knew!

About the others

About her disloyalty

How the girl would sneer

If her toys realized the game

How the girl would snicker

As her toys tried to leave

How the girl would roar with laughter

As her toys broke inside

They owned her

Each one thinking they were the only one

But she owned them all

How long will she continue

This game of hearts?

How long can she go on

Empty like this?

How long will she play them

Until they realize her tricks?

They owned her

(At least they thought they did)

And she owned them all

And that fact was always hid

A dark bitter secret

A tempestuous smile

A teasing grin

A soft touch

A tender kiss

She plays the game

She isn't a toy

No, she's the Mistress

The Mistress of this Game.

Happy Valentine's Day Y'All--Life Post

This is my fifteenth Valentine's Day kiddies....And well it's another one single. Well fine with me. I'm more less happeh here, kiddies. Not alone but not attached either. Just the way I want it to be.

Today was alright, not much happened. Not much ever happens. Well, as long as life is good and everything's going well, I guess I'll stick round but I'm hoping that next year I'll find a guy.....I don't wanna be single for another Valentine's.

Night folks.

Even If Saving You Sends Me To Heaven.....--Life Post

Hello again my loves. It's me again, and I just wanted to drop by, and talk for a while. It's been a long time since I've had a good long monologue on here so it's definitely time for one. xD Jeez, I'm using smileys on here! Spent way too long on chatango....

Anywho, time to tell you everything that's been going on with me lately. I got my report cards back and I was all high eighty averages in every class, so I did rather well. Overall socially I've been good, never have to struggle to find a seat in the caf--that is when I'm willing to sit with my friends who aren't all that well liked. And I am because these guys are fun to be with, and I prefer their company to the 'popular' kids.

My life has been good lately, loved by so very many. I have Dan who will protect me until the very end, and Sammich who will guide me through heaven and hell. My friends would likely die for me, and I can safely say that if I suicide I will cause a great amount of collateral damages across the globe.

The post title is from the song Your Guardian Angel. It`s one that I think my friend Amanda sent me a long time ago and I've been listening to it every time I needed to remember that I'm not alone in the world and that there are so many people looking out for me. They will be here for me, as much as they can be. But only if I let them be there.

Will I let them be there? I will.......

I've got so many things going on and I just realized I have eleven days left.....

Eleven days left until Stephanie suicides.

On her fifteenth birthday.

What kind of a birthday is that? She told me it's been planned for months and that there's nothing I can do to stop her......But I think there is...

If....If I can convince her I love her and fall for her heart and soul I just might be able to save her. But that will take forsaking everything else, and I can't do that......I wish I could save her but I am not strong enough and I can't ask someone else to save her, I won't do this to them......

She is another Emily.....I cannot take being with another Black Rose, another person who I love so much but can never save, no matter how much I try....

I will be fine. Even if she does kill herself, I will heal one day, because I always do. I just blame myself for it, and rather rightly so. I had led her on for months, hoping I could love her and let her in, but never being strong enough to do so. And then I started getting mad at her constantly, never able to calm down. If I had managed to calm down enough and stop being so selfish chances are I would have been able to save her, but that would have killed me.....

So did I make the right choice by opting to remain distanced emotionally? Or should I have fallen for her and forsaken myself in the fight to keep her alive?

I'll tell you my answer when I read her obituary.

Please Tell Us You'll Stay?

We know you've been hurt

We know you're lying

We see the cuts you hide under your shirt

We know you've been crying

Won't you just hold us tight?

Angel you're amazing

Please let this not be the night

That your light is fading

We will never let you fall

You're our angel, our beautiful star

We'll break down your diamond wall

Fight by your side in this unending war

Just please tell us you'll stay

Don't turn away, don't close your heart

Even if saving you takes forever and a day

We'll find a way to give you a new start

We're here until the end

Just don't go away

You will always be our best friend

For forever and a day......

Questions and Answers--Life Post Number Two

Q. Who do you love, now that Adam and you are over?
A. I guess I still love him.....I can't get over him and I don't know when I ever will....We haven't really gotten a major chance to speak in days and I wish we had.

Q. Any major worries about school?
A. Hm no. I think that all of my classes will be relatively easy, and I should do rather well in them. This semester I have geography, science, french, and drama, and drama is obviously not very majorly into homework. So I should be fine. I like my teachers and my fellow classmates and I'm smart, so this semester should be a good one.

Q. Your biggest worry?
A. That I'll lose myself entirely, lose control of my life and have it spiral. I'm trying to maintain control over myself and my impulses, but as time goes by I'm losing it bit by bit. Perhaps I like seeing what kind of things happen when I stop fighting to control it, or maybe I'm just discovering more and more of my knack for causing trouble--either way I'm quite the eventful kid.

Q. What's your biggest online danger?
A.That I will be followed by my past. I will halt my behavior once I tire of it, and halt it entirely. Hurt quite a few people but I will become smarter and the friends that I keep will survive it.

Q. Who loves you these days?
A. A new Adam for one thing, Adam 2.0. And then there are of course all the users who lie and say they love me, but it's impossible to tell if they do or not. And let's not forget Dan, my perverted fourteen year old friend, who loves both me and his girlfriend Mikenna and is planning to try and come up here this summer.

Q. Do you belong to anyone?
A. At this point in time? No no I do not and I would love to remain free for a long time. Of course, there are those who believe they own me, when I do not in fact belong to anyone of them.

Q. Who is the strangest person you know online?
A. Oh jeez this one's a toughie....I have my Goth weirdos, my assorted depressed people, a pedophile that for some reason or another thinks I'm a pedophile myself so always talks to me, my Sergalion German brother Domenic who loves Vocaloid, and a massive amount of others. I have quite the life, so I can't really pick just one strange person.....

Q. Are you still thinking you'll post on here?
A. I'll try to post. I'll post every time I'm in the mood and/or have the time. I love you guys and this blog has been massive in my life and I would hate to leave it, but I'm just running out of heart for this.

When You're Free

Hey kid wanna be wild?

Why not? No regrets and no memories

No stones left unturned

Be owned or run away

Your freedom is the best thing

Just lose yourself and forget

Everything you used to regret

Go on, go ahead

Go ahead and break some hearts

Go on, go ahead

Go ahead and break yourself

Go on, go ahead

Go ahead and be free

It's not like it matters

It's not like you care

So burn in hell

Or bore to death in heaven

Make your choice

As long as you're making it with me

I'll show you the games

Teach you the rules

How to break them

And the better a player you are

The more I'll play you

You know you can't escape

So don't

Even try

But hey

As long as you're free

Come on and play

But make sure it's with me.

Futures--Life Post

I'm looking to tomorrow. I don't know what's coming, I don't know what to expect, I don't know what I should be ready for, and I do not know where I'm going to end up. I just know that I can handle it.

Romantically, I've been busy as always, untied and untangled. I love and I am loved, but I don't belong to anyone. And I doubt I will for a long time. I have declared myself to be permanently single online, which means I get hit on a lot, especially more so now because I've gotten to be pretty freaking cute and adorable. Well alright then. xD I can handle any trouble I get into, and hey it's pretty funny sometimes....

Friendwise, I've been just as busy, finding amazing people every day or two. Socially at school I'm doing decently, spending time with my gang and chatting with a few acquaintances. So overall I'm good.

I love you kiddies, and I wish I could see myself continuing this blog but Normal Ain't Normal has been untouched for a week or so now and there's not much I can say on here anymore.....

I'm being watched too closely, so I don't want to tell everything that's going on. I guess I can't apologize for that and nor can I explain, but I will be fine. It's just that every move I make online is being monitored by some people I know so I do not really want to tell everything.

Oh yes......I'm working a lot on improving my writing skills.....I'm working on a new project that should be several hundred pages when done. I'm seriously hoping I'll be able to focus on it, so I should be okay if I keep up my momentum.

I love you.

I'll talk to chu dudes later!

Why?

Older than me

Dark eyes glaring

Orders barking

"I love you, babygirl."

What's going on?

Isn't this wrong?

Well I'm safe enough

I can get out of this easily

I just wanna run with it

For a while longer

Adam called me

For the first time

Since we broke up

Six minute call

Well.....

I stopped crying

Finally

Did my homework

Worked out

"Blasting the sh*t out of my head."

It worked

But now I'm still finding trouble

Older guys

Love

Safety? Perhaps

Dealing with this hell

Any way I can

So running

Calf Raises

Curlups

Ton of other stuff

My entire body hurts now

Well.....It's better than my heart I guess

I'm finding out every moment of every day

How much I'm cared about

How much I'm loved

It never ceases to amaze me

How cared about I am

And by so many....!

I'm okay guys

I'm okay.